There are things to do but much to say…
Right now I really don’t know what to do. I’m waiting for a call that I know it would be impossible to happen but I’m still waiting and hoping. At this moment I would just sit and wait for that call.
I have a lot of thing in my mind right now, thing like: what will happen next?; is it coming?; am I free?, these are the thoughts I’m holding on right now and for me to go through all of the things that is happening to me right now.
I want to live again. I want to feel again. I want to smile again. I want to be myself again.
Yesterday I met-up with my ex-boyfriend because he needed someone to talk to regarding his life. He recently broke-up with his latest boyfriend about 2 weeks ago. He said a lot of things that I felt really sorry for him. I know he is a good guy but it seems that there is something really wrong. I not sure if he is the problem or maybe I just can see it in him. I not sure if I should tell him that it’s OK or tell him that it will pass but there are questions in my mind that I can’t answer. What I know right now is that he is lonely and sad. The only thing I can do right now is comfort him and spend time with him.
Is there something wrong with me right now. I think I’m losing myself. I think I am missing something in my life right now. Do I need this right now or is this a challenge for me?. Questions more questions are coming at this very moment.
I’ll end this for now but continue very soon…
